Monday, November 16, 2015

Cluttering My Apartment Part II

This past weekend I got the rest of the stuff out of my house. It was a good feeling to have everything out, but a bad feeling to think about what to do with all of my stuff. I just feel like crap every time I have to move. I've moved a lot in the last 4 years, and I'm really tired of it. You'd think by now I would be full fledged minimalist, but with having a house, I didn't quite get to that point. 

The next few days will be filled with bringing in all my stuff that's currently packed into my car. Reflecting upon everything, I have some emotions -

First off, I feel guilty for having my family members help me move. I'm taking time out of their days to help me. The time spent helping was physically intensive and driving intensive. I know family is there to help you, but I shouldn't be needing this much help from my family for moving. 

Second off, I feel embarrassed for needed help and for having so much stuff. This emotion isn't as strong, because I have plans to get rid of stuff, but I still feel slightly embarrassed. 

Third, I feel stressed/cluttered. Having all of this stuff, and having to sort through all of it takes a lot of time. I know I need to take the sorting process in small steps, but it's still overwhelming. 

Lastly, I feel angry. I feel mad about the situation for which I moved. I am mad I still have so much stuff. I'm starting to get mad just looking at my stuff, and am getting tempted to just throw it all away. I know these are just temporary feelings, and I need to approach my stuff with a clear mind. 

So those are my feelings about moving and having a lot of stuff to move. Again, the positive note is that I'm completely moved out of my house. I'm in a much better situation in life compared to before, and I'm grateful for that each and ever day. I'm trying to make the most out of my new opportunity, and I think having a decluttered apartment will help me focus more on this new opportunity.



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